November 29, 2005
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Hey all,
Have you ever felt like you don’t want anything to do with God anymore? Like it’s more trouble than it’s worth? I have, and do quite often. Like I’m putting on a Christian face just so people won’t question me and I won’t get bad grades. I hate feeling like that. I just haven’t always related Christianity to freedom within my heart, and rebelion makes me feel good sometimes. That’s just how I feel sometimes, though not all the time. I did feel inspired at Church last Sunday, for example, and I do read my Bible quite a bit. But the feeling’s definitely not always there.
peace out yallz,
pedro
Comments (8)
More times than I can count to be honest. I’m trying to think of a Bible verse to quote..(I’m kidding, I’m kidding!!!). That’s definitely how I feel right now, at least I think. It’s definitely not a constant, but I often wonder if it’s really all worth it, especially in times where I feel like I’m always being the bigger person and protecting and trying to love someone who claims to be a Christian and is stooping so low and using harsh words, and sometimes I want to stoop to that level (and I’m sure I do at times), but when you are really trying to be better, to be different, it’s so incredibly hard and seems worthless when there never seems to be an impact, or when the person never ever appreciates it!
I can empathize…
I don’t think I feel like I don’t want anything more to do with God as much as I don’t want anything more to do with religion, church, and Judson community…
-ben
Toccoa Falls College.
U have that feeling quite often…and it’s mostly when His people are being ridiculous…it’s then that I have to remember the best lesson I ever learned: God’s people are not God.
Oh, and where on earth have you been?! Of course I’m a Nintendo fan…and I have been for all my life!
I’m feeling that w/ you.
Dying to live~Mookawitz
i want to talk to you again. cant you go back to work and be online. geez!!!
Yeah, faith in God is a funny things sometimes, but I think it’s pretty simple also. He’s like a television channel and if you’re tuned into something different, or not enough on that channel you probably won’t catch all the news and updates you might care too… even matters of the heart I suppose. It would be cool to go to Japan. Did I read your comment right that you might be going there. I’m trying to set up vacation plans there in about four months. I want to go to Tibet too but when I checked it out turns out there’s a lot of clearance I have to get first. Well, take care.
I agree with Ben and Justin.
I haven’t been to church the entire time I’ve been in Europe, and for some reason, I feel closer to God and more aware of my spirituality. Why? Then it hit me – this body of believers on the trip with me, is a church. Not the white upper middle class group of Christians looking for bigger and better auditoriums to preach out of. And besides the community, we are learning about the world and digesting that info together, while still feeding our own relationships with God by reading the Bible, and actually for me, Lord of the Rings. I think we will all have great testimonies when we get back. Of course, it’s not good to just stay here forever, because this is a bubble of sorts, but now we’re ready to face it when we come home, and maybe with real answers to people’s questions. I’m not saying drop church completely. And trust me, God is worth the trouble.